I am here to serve you on this journey because I know how painful it is to live so disconnected to yourself, to others and the world. A pain so deep that self-sabotage seems like the only way to escape the darkness that hangs over you.

I know what it is like to have food consume your thoughts every second of every single day. I know what it is like to pick and prod and grab areas of your body and speak words of hate to it from the moment you wake up to the moment you fall asleep.

I know what it is like to starve yourself so that the pain of the hunger and the thoughts around food numbs out the pain and confusion, and I know what it is like to enter a trance whilst binging on food to fill the void, only to purge it all later. I know what it is like to spend every day in the gym, and to be too afraid to leave the house because I didn’t want anyone to see my body. 

Why am I telling you this? 

Because I think it is important that you know that I can relate to how you feel. I want you to know that you are in safe hands and that I understand.

My healing journey to recover from a long battle of disordered eating and eating disorders took me down many iterations of treatment including twelve step programmes, residential recovery programmes, psychotherapy, hypnotherapy, CBT and just about every other holistic therapy out there.

It wasn't that these methods didn't help, but none of these approaches really helped me get to the bottom of why iI behaved around food the way I did and why I thought what I did about my body. They never got to the root cause of the pain, nor did they invite body wisdom or my lost spirit into the recovery journey, which is where I eventually found the goal that helped me slowly take down the walls that had kept me confined for so long.